THE MEMORIES OF THE MOTHMAN

DAMN AND FECK IT!!!

LOL!

Moths because I am involved in chasing them about though in all honesty this is the area of two brothers, who I believe we'll take over this particular blog one day but still have my involvement.

Mothman to pay homage to what I think I'd one of the greatest films, as well as one of r the most eerie, I have ever watched in my life! This is of course The Mothman Prophecies starting Richard Gere and Laura Linney and boy did I find her dreamy!! I am never one for watching movies repeatedly and too close together but this one broke the rules!  I shocked a fair few others too by getting them to watch it. The atmosphere and eerie feeling could not have been bought across better by the superb music created by someone, or a group but more likely duo lol, called Tomandandy!

I digress, to pay homage.

Memories because of my own and asking with the eerie feeling I get whenever it plays up, which is a great deal and had become much more frequent recent years.

This should be evident throughout the life of this blog going back right to the beginning and long before? Of course little could I have guessed that this would be a condition let alone being linked to my Plantar fasciitis!! But linked they are!

No this post is all about one simple bag of sugar. Yes you read that correctly I did indeed type a 'a bag of sugar'!

The two most common things sugar is used for is for making tea, and/or coffee, and then cereals. Not eating so much in the way of cereals and I cannot drink coffee anymore, well I could only in the mornings I guess, so it's solely for tea. Both normal and decaffeinated tea.

Now here is the thing to make you bake the grey matter!

Today I came home with four pints of milk as yesterday morning I noticed I was getting low. Yesterday morning. But when I left the house it was one of two items I needed and the other one being sugar which I intended to buy each morning since last Saturday!!

I have left the house to buy sugar for six days and somehow M's snagged to rent ever the milk and still forget the forget the sugar!

So it could be argued that I has age the memory of a Moth and that to have that of a Goldfish would be an improvement at times!

Yesterday I returned inside my house three times and when I got to where I was heading I realised I had still left tree woo items in the house, sorry three and now remembered it was four, no five!!

See what I mean?!

Both phones, tablet PC, camera and back up battery!! No wait? Missing something ... umm two ticks? Ugh! Idiot two phones makes 5, 5 minutes later!!! Lol!

I cannot emphasize enough how frustrating this is! The memory thing, Fibrofog add they refer to it. This is why I used to get so frustrated with GPs as for ten years I would walk out of the surgery and realize I had forgotten something because they rushed me out the door. When I had Doctors tell me they only deal with one thing at a time outer appointment coming from a Doctor this stunned me! Like I said to all that stated this, will if these thinks are linked your never going to diagnose it with that rule and that is a waste of both our times! Also what about prior that do have memory issues? I imagine that a fair percentage of mental health sufferers have memory issues?

Little did I know that I did indeed have a condition that explains my forgetful nature that had been like that for over 15 years at a guess. But then my family members would have an accurate idea of that because I famously forget, or they thought didn't bother, with Birthday and Christmas Cards. I told them it was of because I hate Christmas because due to not seeing my daughter for so long. Which was true but not the real reason as simply telling people you forgot their birthday I see as being potentially hurtful.

So the memory and the sleep issue is a real stumbling block for keeping to any arrangements, new or even on the same bloody date each year! Today I was trying to figure out if it was Tuesday or Wednesday and decided it must be Wednesday. That is until a mattress wife mentioned it was Thursday!!

If it had never occurred to anyone you will find that this blog well show you that I hate appointments and specific times and dates because it's a worry every single day that I will either forget it entirely or not fall asleep til the next morning and wake up without enough time to make it!

So you can imagine me shaking my head when they made the appointment for this condition at 9AM in the morning? Lol!

Yeah right, that's never going to happen! Unless I traveled there the night before and sat in the hospital all night which I would be fully prepared to do. But this would make me cranky and short tempered which would not be a good idea, unless that was what they were going for?! Lol! Then a few sharp comments on the patronizing side would set me off like a rocket while they stand there licking each one of a pile of labels and start whacking them on my forehead when it came into range?!

Lmao!

Nothing would surprise me anymore, nothing. Well until another part down the line stating I was wrong?!

THE COMPUTING WOES

Well I must say something very odd had happened in the last few days and I am still pondering to the cause.

I have mentioned recently to friends, cannot remember if I mentioned it in this blog but did on my corruption blog, about deciding to build a computer and then changing my mind.

Then there was a court case by a large public body. Who had taken me to court and obtained a liability order from the court quite illegally. It turned out that courts, rather conveniently, do not keep record regarding reasons they grant orders leading me to demand to know how anyone can keep a check on them and can break the law and not be a arrange to anyone. It then turned out that the whole thing was reversed, the bailiffs called off and turns out they admitted to owing me money, yet the figure is only a fraction of a percent of what they alone owe me, ten percent if they are not to blame for freedom pass refusals! Yes I am speaking of Enfield Council and Council Tax of course.

I had decided to try somehow to build this dammed computer I not only need but have wanted to build for 7 years now!!

This back pay, though smaller than the real figure, meant this gathering of hardware would be less painful than previously thought. Only less painful and die what will be in essence a budget PC except for one single component that for me if the most wanted and most necessary in my next computer. The overall price will still be budget of that I can assure you!

Now one of the things I am going to do is to use an AMD APU in my new system. This would be a budget processor costing presently around £125 as opposed to buying an Intel Core i5 or i7 for between £200 to £600 where even the latter to me is nothing, sorry from the fact I do not have it. I am a computer specialist and there are processors that cost a couple of grand and motherboards with two or more sockets so that you can have multiple chips!

An Apple equivalent would like like the new Mac Pro with the cheapest version costing likely the grand and the mid level model costing £7,500. I think we can not bother with the top model as you get the idea.

The other thing that the AMD APU is good fur is also having a built in graphics chip, which is why they are called APUs instead of CPUs. Both sections of this cheap would be a very big leap forward on what I currently have but I'd bit the premium item I referred to. That will be a switch from a Hard Disk Drive which contains several metal platters containing your data magnetically like that of audio tape. The disks all spin and just like a stylus arm on an old record player there is one inside a hard disk. This arm shoots in and out between the separate disks to access data to load up. As you work your way from the hard disk to the processor itself you jump into different types of ever faster memory chips.

From disk it goes to buffer memory chips on the hard disk.

From the Hard Disk Buffer Memory it loads into RAM.

From RAM memory it then moves to Cache Memory.

From Cache Memory it then gets fetched to the core engines inside the processor ... for processing!

As you move down from each line to the next there us a jump in speed but for some time now hard disks have lagged, sorry for the pun, behind! I stared at university that there will come a time when the hard disk will get dumped and chips used instead. It to longer than I thought however!

A couple of years back these drives started coming out but we're tiny in memory and bloody expensive too! Plus there were issues with them and their drivers and controllers along with other things despite the speeds. Something like a 60GB SSD, add they are called standing fur Solid State Disk, cost a grand. I received a shock several days back when I spotted that even the fastest SSD drives of 250GB in size can be bought for a little over one hundred pounds!

Now currently Windows 7 plays up and I cannot figure out why. It takes around 7 minutes from start up before I can do anything too. When trying to take a day of rest I play games my laptop is barely able to run. These are Elder Scrolls Skyrim that I recently have a rest and decided to go back to Fallout New Vegas. The later hit left because stupid Valve and their stupid Steam software failed to save the saved games of Fallout and I had to start at the beginning! This engaged me no end and after I realised this I went to Skyrim, possibly buying Skyrim because of that?!

Yesterday I was playing Fallout in the afternoon and had my two companions of Veronica of the Brotherhood of Steel, who I had previously, and the eye-bot Ed-E. I had not long found out something about Veronica I did not know before, that she is GAY and I laughed and thought "bugger me even my computer girlfriend is of limits?!" when a little while later my screen went black and there was a beep!

Now this had never happened to me before. On any computer! The computer was still on and hard drive light was on along with the fan and I thought my screen has gone?! It would not do anything so I forced a shut down and rebooted. Everything was fine and worked as normal and I it it down to some freak crash in Fallout, add it does crash a hell of a lot. I fired up Fallout and ten minutes into gaming it did it again! So I turned the damn thing off and went off to do something completely unrelated to computers as what with the fecking crap phone and the issues I have with the tablet PC too I am not sure who I would like to give the hardest kick in the nuts, Steve Ballmer,  who got slagged off quite accurately by an Amazon reviewer, or Erik The Viking?! Sorry Schmidt!

Today I had my bike out ready to go out and I took so long finding things and then remembering nothing was charged up that street an hour and a half I decided it was a waste of time and out the bike back in its hiding place! Yes days really can be like that for me!

I fired up the laptop went oat the now regular message of Windows not shutting down properly to me muttering "Yeah, yeah you halfwits!" and fired up Fallout! This time everything was OK and I was relieved ... until I had been playing for about an hour and if it went again?!

Now I do not know what is going on. It had stumped me in all honesty and I will have to pay attention to the not up screen as I suspect that one of the main chips is overheating? Now because it's a game many people would probably think that it's the graphics chip but not necessarily so. The CPU can be just as stressed out in gaming as the GPU. At the end if the day what it means is that I now cannot use my laptop for gaming.

It could turn out that Ubuntu broke my laptop is it did shut down several times with a message about overheating! If you stared this to Canonical they would simply point the finger at AMD. Maybe they would be right? My system did get hot!

But at the end of the day all chips get hot and you really on the savvy and professionalism of the manufacturer building it so it does not get bloody hot! There were far more powerful laptops than this one when I bought it. It was also a PC World refurbished laptop but lied and said it was ex demo on the day. Would never have bought a refurbished laptop in a million years and now you know why. This is the forth thing to happen to this laptop since purchase and I have only ever had one thing in seven years with my last one. This one has had four in two years now.

So very weird that I have had this sudden urge to build a computer telling myself off for relying on that crappy laptop for so long and that I need a proper system, but won't be building that lol! Only to then have the laptop do something catastrophic. Now if it turns out to be the thermal paste on either of the two processors then this sitting off well become more frequent! That would be catastrophic for me in terms of both work and entertainment.

So it seems I really have no bloody choice now I will have to build this budget system. My work on all my blogs have been increasing and will continue to do so for the next four months or more. Was not the best time for it to do this!

I might run Skyrim tomorrow and see if it dues it again using that game? If not I will go back to Fallout and try again and then look to see if they're are any overheating messages? But I cannot see that because in the event if overheating the system shuts itself off but maybe it does not do this for the GPU? I can tell you that the metal casing would have burnt my hands has it been any hotter. Not felt heat like that before I must say.

If it is the GPU then this is not too bad as it had a list powered GPU in it so can still work in it. Just anything intensive in graphics would be impossibly including gaming, image editing which I do actually now do. Videos I do bit normally use and not sure, higher resolutions could be problematic if running more than thirty minutes.

Why does nothing ever work and why are these laptops made like utter crap? Eh, Hewlett Packard? Why have your laptops gone back to bring made like shit?!?!

Lmao!

ERA OF THE DUMB DUMBS

I saw this report a couple of days ago somewhere else and thought it was a typo or something?

Surely the technology journalists cannot be that bloody stupid?! Hmm on second thought...

I am afraid to have to point out to these journalists that Internet Explorer and Windows XP are very separate things!!

You were posting attention over their being fine for including Internet Explorer on a Windows installation and not their rivals?! Lmao!

Quite how this made the news with everything wide that due not I just don't know!

Quite his they made the mistake of being surprised that a separate piece of software installed on Windows XP is to get an update?! Saints preserve us!!

Of you are going to report about all the software that will get updates while being installed on Windows XP you need to rearrange your app because there won't be space for anything else!

When I first glimpsed this I thought they must have made a mistake and many XP gets an update?! No, it was worse than that!

Oh how is tech people cry out for decent tech journalism! I just resided the only one I pay attention to are two chaps on Canada. The Tech ... Err something, Lol. They are followed by me, subscribed to I should say, on YouTube! I also have realised I have not had a notification so not watched a report by them for quite sometime now!

I need to look into this.

Windows XP users to get Explorer fix http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/technology-27249695

THE SONY TALE OF WOE

Well it seems like my old favorite brand which became a not trusted brand are too predict bad news as regards their takings.

I do not know what idiot took charge of Sony but an idiot they are add they, or he/she, had been warned over and over again and even by me on occasion.

However this could be a problem whereby either the receivers of warning said warnings are either idiots our have no care about the company they work for? I say this because there is no chain of communication and there are some things received that is above their pay grade and should go up the hierarchy?

Put simply it does not and the options to open up a line of communication is held back or hidden! Even when you do find it you do not get the courtesy of a response! Though this last dig was more a habit of Nikon Japan. Obviously think they are too good for mere mortals? Well either that or I scared the living bejesus out of them?

Back to Sony. Falling sales of Blu-Ray discs? As always Sony and no doubt been told by others the pricing is to expensive and all over the bloody shop! Though this could be partly down to greedy movie studios, like Disney for one?! I find it quite unpalatable that they over price kids movies and keep them up for lengthy periods! Also target odd is how certain movies disappear from shelves for months on end before reappearing and still the same price they were two years before?!

As for your TVs? Until now, crap, bland and over priced!

Your attitude and skullduggery with your PlayStation OS I am amazed has not lead to you losing sales there?! But then you have two choices of a rock and a hard place, with Microsoft! Lol!

Your VAIO range used to be nice only now the whole range had to big a premium even the really crap laptops?! Over two thousand pounds for a small laptop just because it has a carbon case?! You obviously think the public ate fools that somehow managed to acquire more money than the sense they possessed?! Yeah like that was ever going to work! That price did not include the several add-ons like a box with the graphics chip in and an optical disc. No doubt the times the price of standard ones?! Lol!

Hmm now let's move onto music?! Your Walkmans of recent years have all been abysmal but to the muted sound volume! But to be fair you probably ate not alone on this depending on the location of the moron that decided on this? Even so that still does not excuse the premium prices once again on the extra memory and nor does it excuse the extremely bland styling!

If you have doubt's over that, Mr Idiot Sony Executive, then I can tell you I bought a second hand version of your A Series Walkman because not only was it about the only stylish thing you have produced outside of two over expensive laptops but it's replacement was BUTT UGLY! LOL!

I could have purchased a brands new Walkman for little more than I paid for the one I have!

If I thought about it long enough and searched my older memory banks I could probably come up with quite a few things. I won't mention that their Cell Processor was not the super chip it was supposed to be? I could state I heard it was a pain in the arse to code for? I could state about how they snoop on what you do with your PlayStation and then punish you for buying a second hand PlayStation that was previously Jail-broken?! The fact that you bought this in a high street store and paid VAT on it does not really count for anything. Your buggered and should have realised it was previous jail broken and reset back to normal before it was flogged to a store and then flogged to you?! Yes there must be a kit or sensor device you can buy? No?! Are you sure?! Because Sony already have the software to detect it and you would think they would release it as an App for your Sony phone so you can tell ... LMAO, sorry I just cannot keep that up!

I really could go into a whole reel like that for just about everyone I have battled with! I could be very sarcastic and can continue along like that for some time!!

Hmm maybe I could create a series like that?! I would have to spend a long time with dynamically growing lists of their foibles and idiosyncrasies and then write a monologued piece fur each one just based on sarcasm ... Oh OK taking the right royal piss then?! LOL!

I will have to see! I would have to make sure there was a continuous flow from one thing to another and it would have to be damn funny from one sarcastic line into the next!

For instance I find it strange that front line staff in public offices like councils look down their noses at you because your not in overpaid work for sitting on your fat arse taking for fecking ever and a fecking day to do everything and anything, too?!

Lmao!

Sony predicts bigger full-year loss http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/business-27234511

THE LATEST GOBBELDY GOOK

Here is a BBC report that desire me reading it twice I have absolutely no idea what they are on about!

Maybe my Fibromyalgia is finally scrambling my grey matter but all I can see from this report is that someone has been arrested for malicious messaging, or tweets, and they mention the teacher who was murdered. They fail to mention on the sentence regarding the teacher why they were mentioning her, i.e. she was stabbed, nor do they mention what the messing was!

I could imagine someone returning to the UK who has not heard about the death of that poor teacher and reading this thinking the BBC have completely lost the plot!

It beggars belief this one.

The only reason I have posted this link is because of how badly I think it had been written and presented!

If you cannot do it well then do not do it at all.

Teacher death message man charged http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-leeds-27273044

THINKING OF THE POSSIBLE TITLES

Will this is a pleasant surprise!

The first time I have actually witnessed honesty and professionalism being rewarded! At long last there is a message out that it is the thing to do and give others something to look up to and say to themselves ...

'I want to be like that! I want to be highly regarded and not a figure that the public would rather see stained to death or burned at a stake!'

The nurse behind blowing the whistle on the Staffordshire Hospital fiasco is awarded the title Order of the British Empire, OBE.

I do hope letters and titles are enough for others?! Lol!

Nurse whistleblower collects OBE http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-stoke-staffordshire-27244206

THE FIRST PITFALL BELOW THE NETS

I have stated for bloody years before I even started this blog and every now and then during its life that by bit keeping the status quo among everyone you are sleepwalking into a nightmare.

I have repeated this many times to petiole that should know better as well as think they know better...

The Law Society, Community Legal Advice, Citizens Advice, Solicitors Regulatory Authority and dozens and dozens of solicitors.

All of the above like to talk using words they think makes them fat mire intelligent than the next person to come along. All think they know better. None do!

I used the words 'status quo' rather deliberately to bout be so obvious but make people immediately think of a level playing field.

A level playing field tends to invoke images of scales.

Scales are the very symbol that represents justice in the United Kingdom and yet for up to three decades now it had been eroded and the scales tipped heavily to one side!

For me those members of the above organizations should be utterly ashamed of themselves for their lack of sincerity along with their turning away, or being incompetently blind, for what had been going on for a long time now!

I wrote this post after seeing a report on the BBC App about a fraud trial being halted amid the emerging fact that their is a lack of legal aid meaning the trial would not be fair.

Well... FECKING HELL N DO YAH THINK!!!!

HOW IS IT THAT THE CONSISTENT EROSION OF LEGAL AID HAD GONE ON FOR TWENTY YEARS PLUS AND ONLY NOW ONE OF THE MORONS NOTICE THE ISSUE?!

Or perhaps I would be more correct in saying that this is the first case that was getting media attention where they had no choice but to do what they did for fear of repercussions?!

It beggars belief that many people work for an industry whose very symbol is justice for all and yet have gone completely against the fundamental principles for its very origins and yet walk around and act as if it is them and not the scales that should be revered and command respect?

Maybe if you one day start to act like it once again that respect may return. However systematically destroying justice while approaching one of the worst financial times in recorded history was a powder keg slap bang in the centre of the smoker's lounge at the local school!!

Speaking of schools it was dreadful what happened to that poor teacher and I was worried about something like this happening and then getting worse. I have a few predictions regarding this but not enough had been released in the mainstream media about it for any suspicions to be confirmed.

I am worried however that this may become more common place if the situation with the UK remains as it is for much longer.

So below is the link to the fraud trial which for halted over lack of legal aid!

Stupid, stupid overpaid fools with delusions of grandeur.

I recently thought I had won a major victory recently after receiving an email but then could not read it for a couple of days. It was 3AM when I read it so was out of it as I am currently in a very bad period oh sleepless episodes.

I shall pay about this in the next couple of days but it's not a big a big victory as I first thought! It is still a victory but not one whereby I receive something of what I lost, despite the fact I now recall that it is actually two things I lost each year for 7 years!

I shall email them back punting out this oversight, probably blame me and state it was my responsibility to do re-do it, so to speak. But they have now admitted it was there mistake and then asking with reminding them off this I will point out the errors of their comments based on the facts known of my condition!

Fraud trial halted amid legal aid row http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-27238201